Last night

Last night you begged to sleep in our bed. You love sleeping in our bed and usually I let you but other times I make you sleep in your own bed. Last night I wanted you to sleep in your own bed because you talk in your sleep a lot and I was really tired and between getting up with your sister2-3 times a night and then you waking me up when I am actually sleeping it gets hard. I went to wash my face and when I came back in you were all cuddled up in my bed, even though I told you no, with your messy little piggy tails cause you didnt want to wash your hair in the bath and I didnt have the energy to make you, just looking at my with those big, beautiful brown eyes and told me "mom, I just want to cuddle with you for a little biddit and then I will go in my own bed, ok? Deal?"  How could I say no to that? So, after I read for a while I turned the light off and we cuddled. You scooted over so close and even though you are a big 3 year old you still fit perfectly, contouring the outline of my chest and legs intertwined. You turned your head and kissed my cheek and I told you that I loved you so much and I just laid there. Quietly listening to you breath in and out and then start the little twitches that told me you were falling asleep. And I thought about how much I love you, how absolutely unconditional my love for you is and how you are growing up so fast I can hardly even believe it. I thought about how in not too long you arent going to want to sleep in my bed any more. So, I let you stay. And then I fell asleep, holding my big girl and loving every minute of it.