A glimpse into our night....

1:30 or so I hear Tatum on the monitor crying. She doesn’t seem to settle down on her own after several minutes which she usually does now. So I go in there to help her get back to sleep. I pick her up and nurse her for a while and then I realize she has poo poo in her panties. I can’t say I blame her. I wouldn’t wanna lie down and go to sleep with poo poo in my panties either. So, I successfully change her diaper while nursing her which I have to say I have gotten incredibly good at. She hates having her diaper changed in the middle of the night…HATES it. So, I started doing it while nursing her and while it took some time to get it, we do it with ease now. Anyway, then I pick her up and sit in the chair in her room with her. She sits up, plays with my necklace then lays her head back down. While I am rocking her, her head on my shoulder and her little belly rising and falling on mine I think to myself, when did you get so big? I am holding her, her head on my shoulder, her legs dangling over the chair and her arms curled under her and I realized I have a toddler. Not a baby but a toddler. She is walking and she is communicating like a big girl. I took a few moments before putting her down to take it all in. Breathe in the smell of her hair, tickle her back and just hold her while I could, knowing it wasn’t going to be long before she will be too big to sit and rock. Wow, who knew I could feel so much raw emotion and love for something at 2:10 a.m.? Turns out she ended up in our bed crawling around, kissing the dog and squealing with delight when the dog kissed her back. She got a hold of the TV remote and played with that a while talking to it as to tell it what she wanted it to do and then kissing the dog some more. This all went on for about an hour before I picked her up, put her in her own bed and fell fast asleep myself…..only to be woken up by her at 5:30 this morning. Tell me again when they start sleeping??